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19/7
我们虽然天天都见面，但我只能用冷淡去伪装自己，以便让TA离开我，因为我知道，我离不开TA。

在爱情面前我是懦弱的，我不敢表白，只因我怕连朋友都没得做，可是我又不能只把TA当成朋友，在TA身边，只剩煎熬。

毕竟，TA比我优~ 但是TA与我的谈话不像是普通朋友，尤其是我问TA喜欢谁时的回复：

‘讲出来会吓到你’，也许只是我一厢情愿多想了。但是那时的情景好像是眼对眼的谈话，而不是面对面的谈话。

老实说，我身边真的出现许多不错的人。
体贴的、出头的、关心的、聆听的、搞怪的....
但是都不能取代心里的那一位。

和父母商量一些事情后得到了意见与欣慰，<3 开心 ~

20/7
当别人讲你和谁什么什么的时候，你也许有点开心。但在我心里却是失落与心酸。
因为在没有明确的互相表明之前，谁靠近你（对我有威胁的）都会影响我的情绪。

28/7

其实有很多事情我早就有‘想提醒你的念头’只是呢，想了想还是算了。
结果你还是忘了该带/做的事，哈哈。今天有考试，所以便提醒了你，但为了提防误解所以也发给一些朋友。虽然只是短短的谢谢，但收到你的回复还蛮开心的说。
但听到你一些话，好像其他人也发给你，有点觉得白费心机。
考过了，你显得有点失落，老实说我还是第一次主动去安慰人。
是我动了心？还是只是朋友会做的事情？你的心里话,只对我说吗？
还是跟你很好的朋友都知道？就像上次一样，之后的我很。。。觉得不特别去。。。


★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
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2８ JULY 2012 

Ever Since

Ever since that day (3) , somehow I felt that our bond had become close, I have become brave enough to look eye-to-eye with you without trying to dodge it. We been speak more frequently compare to the past.

This happy thought change after what I learned today. Found out the truth from my imaginary, know? Before the truth came, sometime when I recall back the memory with you I automatically put on a smile. But now, It seems that the way you react that day is somehow similar to others ( through the chatting I had when I was 八卦 with friends ). From information I gather, it seems that most of people had the same feeling toward you : ' unable to communicate with the look serious and busy you ' . Fantasy broken once I heard friend said : ' he tell the same story about himself ' . which make me common and not the special one.

Ever since we are on the same side, the distance between us become closer , more eye contact and speak , don't you think ? or it's just one of my another fantasise ... I'm confuse ... and scare ? I once openly help the other who I'm interested to get close to their love... which they happy, I'm always be the one bless and wish them... ( this what I get for not being brave >.< )

Tell me, seriously... Long term... or it's another Good Bye...

Good news is I more focus in academy , Thumbs UP =D

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
10.00 PM
4 JULY 2012