真言

回答了一个心理测验，结果准到有点讨厌。

你的感情觀很善變，也很矛盾。

你害怕寂寞，卻不希望被人看穿自己的脆弱；

你渴望被關心，卻老是報喜不報憂，明明難過卻要硬撐。

你很怕無聊，怕一成不變，但改變的機會來了，卻又害怕失去自我。

當你愛上一個人的時候，你常問自己：「這真的是我想要的嗎？」。

你的愛情就像在跳探戈，

對方前進你就會後退，對方退卻你又想更進一步，

常讓人搞不清楚你到底要什麼？

因為你常分心，對方也會覺得你常沒把他放在心上。

別胡思亂想了！多點勇氣和堅定，你的愛情可以更穩健發展！

口是心非的暗戀高手

雙子座：

特別喜歡裝模作樣，就算已經愛對方愛到抓狂，也要ㄍㄧㄥ住，談笑風聲，用爽朗的笑聲掩蓋害羞！

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上

22.00

22 Oct 2012 

中学生涯-二重奏

一奏----在两年前以中五生结束。
二奏----在今年我以中六生结束。
同感：禁止带违禁品 还瞒杀气氛的说。

想起那时，我自己从没想过会呆在一样的学校多两年----毕业。

That time, I made friends who understands 

And I'm so happy
I may be silent, but we can see eye to eye and too busy having FUN
现在？说有没有后悔嘛，不管怎样也要努力渡过每一关。

在友情，我对每一个同学都一视同仁，也许就因为Neutral才造成不特别吧。

毕业钟声响起，有点不想那么快离开。心里有一种怪怪的感觉。
是不舍？是等待某人？或期待某些事发生？
不知，有些事情就 因为不知才保留甜蜜的回忆。
但内心深处却很想知道。

友人问我：迟疑是否因为心里有所期待？
的确，被友人看透了。但是我不想承认，有点可悲。
虽然是期待 但那时没实现，该留念的已留（非同想像）。但我满足。
而且又破记录了~ 相处时间最长~
握手能当牵到手吗？自己自High ， 我是个容易满足的人。
平起平坐？门当户对？双家和睦和谐？批准？
可惜啊，这可是社会不看好的感情啊。

Some Reaction Require Reagent , Respondent and Catalyst .
我不想友人错失机会。
我当起了Catalyst ，想要给友人和他心人《纪念的合照》。
可能会成功而幸福，失败而誊清误解。
可惜，友人好嘴硬。
不好像我，活在只限美好的回忆里。心灵可是会生病的啊。

机会是自己争取，（我当作）我们彼此都不明显的争取了吧。
I'm Hopeless Romance ，期待爱情 。
很爱幻想（单纯的），疑心病点点重。
尤其当是别人碰You不能装算！但是又厚着脸皮，看不见。。。

也友人说过：把对方照片当手机壁画，会成真！但外人看不得。
我看，我也该尝试。希望有效！毕竟，这是我们最后相处的时间。
我们都知，好/普 朋友 ， 毕业了， 以后见面多数陌生。。。

最后想说，HANDS OFF ON MY PEOPLE !

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上

8.50 PM

20 OCT 2012 

Bout me Again

'As You Get Older , You will be able to understand and to handle thing yourself ' 

但是我领会到的却是相反，

' As I grow older , I tend to run away even though I understand '

我觉得我对事情的看法越来越会放得开。

我要的是一对一的爱，但是你要的是所有人的崇拜

没错！谁都希望被祝福而不是诅咒/歧视。

我就像这首歌一样:

  

' Hey Hey Hey Hey, could you please wait a minute ? '

' Oh sorry...If you are busy... '

' But wait , just awhile , I want to talk with you '

' But then 'what can i do?' 'what is the point?' '

' Let's play some game ~ Rock-Paper-Scissors ! '

' I'm sorry, I'm not very good at this ( talk to you ) 

' or i bothering you ( I'm not interest to you )'

'And Yet I still watch that idiot (you who don't know that i like you) '

' Making my throat dry and I can't speak anything to you (shy~) '

' What can i do , I'm being honest , well I kinda .... you '

' Sign , no good , it's as scary as ever '

' I want to convey my feelings , Why is it so hard ... '

只能怪自己没勇气吗？还是只是遇到不对的人呢？

老实说 主动旧了 还蛮累的 。

I'm a hopeless romance and Dreamer. But the reality keep make my romance dream broken. 

Either it is taken ; not interest in me ; I'm the 3rd 

Hm, I feel that I kinda have potential to become '小三' . And I become more and more realistic , is like almost give up on dreaming and romance . Maybe money is my lifetime partner . Sad huh, Thinking like that.

And is call for the following song :

' It's been years since I had that dream '

' and my body has definitely changed since then '

' My love has probably turned the white horse around '

' But hey ! Hurry up and come back ! '

' I wanna to be loved '

' It's not that I don't have the character for it '

' I will be the type that thinks of everyone '

' And so come back , my love '

' though I want to play and play and play '

' with all my friends and the thing I like but there is time limit '

' I have a some weakness  '

' Which makes me irritated ~ '

' But still I want to be loved '

'Though every one's cold stares defeat me '

' But then , my heart with romance will burst soon ! '

' So please understand that...I still want to be loved '

' Even you pour in reality in my dream '

' If I can't live my dream , I'll shrivel up '

' I believed that someday my love will return to me '

' But it must like me when I'm irritated '

' Now that my life plan is disorderly '

' So I don't care if it's on a white horse, a zebra , a donkey '

' a dog or a cat or a llama or even an alpaca '

' Just get here already !!!!! '

' I want to be loved and I won't let anyone interfere with that '

' I will siesta with stuffed toys surrounding me '

' If one day my love came , I will be loved until I die '

' So, until that time comes , I will stay single and keep on searching '

' Please come, My Love ~'

（歌词被我改成和我有关，所以和影片不同）

Well I get disappointed until 

I feel that I don't care what gender , male or female , 

as long I'm loved I will take it ( if suit me =P ) 

I mean YOU really don't know the reason why I .... ?!

 Or You just too 纯洁 and I think too much...

Somehow I wish YOU saw this and tell me to cont / to ended

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上

1.30 PM

 13 OCT 2012 

< 近态 10/12 >

4/10

为什么..你当时对我好..
又为什么.. 现在变得冷淡了..

7/10
是不是我的祈祷实现了呢：你和我的交谈多了，你会主动了，我们的距离似乎靠近了。
还是你也发现日子剩下不多，也许过了STPM我们因为进入不同的大学而导致不常见面了。
如果你对我就像我对你一样，可以为彼此许下承诺吗？许下一个感情的保障。
毕竟两人在不同的地方，无法肢体上的守护。
靠近是你的试探？是想聊天？或纯粹想待在身旁？
不管那个，我都很满足。
哪怕只是静静的呆在你旁边，我就很幸福了~

你的生日快到了，我很想送你礼物。
但没有勇气，没有借口送你，加上在这年龄，会被别人误会（虽然很想）。
我是指我们的关系而不是我的人格哦。

9/10
How can i miss the chance to get close !!! What was i THINKING !!!  Chances to beside 你

You know is weird that the photo they tag u aren't you =.=

11/10
Today someone asked me : ' Who are the one that I truly like ? ' Can't say that i can't tell
( i did told someone ) but I think that its kinda weird. Besides, I still in observe stage ( for a year ) can't say that me and you got feel wor... but sometime got feel leh... However, my words is like this song ' Melt '

The word 'I like You' I can't say out 

12/10

好像正在期待什么~

有些事情需要争取~所以告诉自己'我做了！

14/10

做是做了。先是期待后是失望。我希望还没到后，而这只是中间的过程。

虽然是小事，但‘No’的答案就相似在‘No Relationship’ 这样。

This scenario keep repeat on my mind and it let me unable to stay focus ! 

You making me think that I'm going 'One Way' in this relationship ?!