Wishes and Memory

Sometime i wish i am a animation character ....
At least i given a target on what should i do and just follow the storyboard that the writer written .... Sometime life would be easy when let the fate carry me away ....
Follow the same path my whole life through .
Although i know i cant , but i wish it can .

Life is weird , when you run out of choice , you wish there is more choice ; when you got a lot of choice , you wish there is less choice . 

This night, i start thinking .... About future , about past , about you .....
Every time there will be tear come out from my eye ....
I'm not crying ,
but the tear flow out by itself . Maybe my heart is sad , but my face have no expression about that . Is sad that there is no answer for my question .
Every time keep telling myself to move on ....
But end up waiting,
waiting in the past.

Some memory are hard to forget , some are easy .
Maybe because I don-t gave in ,i don-t believe it , i don-t accept it ....
I do not allow it to become true ....
Maybe this is the price to pay for doing that .

Is not that i like using computer whole day , is just that ....
I need to keep myself busy , so that i could stop thinking about those unpleasant memory .... Running away , Afraid , yes i am and i always afraid .
I keep hiding things inside , running away from problem , i want to help but i have not enough spirit to do it and i afraid .

I remember what vanille say : 

no , 

i swear i would not run away anymore ,

 i rather fight and lose

 than give up without even trying . 

And also yuna : 

i will live in my sorrow ,

i will live up my life , 

i will stand my ground and be strong ,

i will defeat sorrow . 

I don't know when will it be but i will conquer it , 

and i will do it without false hope .i will stand my ground and be strong ,

I wish i had their spirit .... Am i ready to face it ? Am i brave enough ? I don-t know ....

Yuna said : 

if we get seperated , 

just whistle , 

i will come by running , i promise .... 

A girl can make a promise like that to her guardian and also friend .... Do i have this chance ? Even i have , i think no one will appear .... Cause i don-t know how to whistle ....

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
12.38 AM
10 MARCH 2011

<傑尐✖名句三>

我和你

我和你

就像被搅乱的魔术方块

试着还原

却把还原变得不可能

搭好了一面

却乱了另一边

我累了也不烦恼了

但舍不得丢掉

可以的话

我希望说一声

‘对不起，我不该把你搅乱。’

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
12.30 PM
7 MARCH 2011

<傑尐✖星情3>

There's a gold frame

that sits by the window

And my heart breaks

 A little more each time I try to picture the memory inside.

There's an old book

 that's too hard to read it

 But if you look

 you'd see how you look through my eyes

But now one more chapter's gone by

and I know

 it's time to move on even though I'm not ready.

 I've got to be strong

and trust where you're heading

Even though It's not easy

 right now the right kind of love

Is a love that lets go

There's an old dance

That we've done forever

You give me your hand

Well let me decide when to reach

You always let me be me

But now's my time to take chances

And find my own wings

And whatever happens I know you'll be there waiting for me

Doesn't wanna miss the future

or stand in the past

It will always hold on

But never hold you back. 

And even though It's not easy 

Right now the right kind of love

Is love that let's go 

With the love that let's goo.

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
12.04 PM
7 MARCH 2011