Saturday, October 29, 2011

一日的旅程

就读中六的我刚考完试但依然还是得继续念书,因为课程还没教完。
这天,星期六,早上我依然到学校上物理课,
但是今天学校比平常热闹,
因为这天是中五的学弟学妹们的毕业典礼
看着他们,让我想起去年也在那里参加毕业典礼的我。
其实这天也没什么啦,只是拍照和拍掌而已咯。
还有听无聊的致词,不知到为什么毕业典礼的时间好像一年比一年长,大人物所说的词来来去去都没差就是时间变长了。
可能是了吧(说话变慢了),
呵呵。送你们的歌:





每次上物理课,好像只有半班的人 和 老师又在前面讲一些我听不懂的语言。
有时候蛮赞同一句话
其实高中和国中没什么差别,只是一个是十五层地狱和一个是十六层而已。
学生时期都会遇过的事情“上课无精打采,下课/自修却生龙活虎”
没错,
自修时出现了一些帮人 看相的人
他们拿出毕业刊11,以相看相,强叻!
讲的话好像 做媒人和 “骑歌” 的边界。
不但这样,下课后还竟然到毕业典礼旁,看小学生。
(我想小学生们应该是想“怪哥哥和怪姐姐”吧)

之后便赶到1st Avenue看我期待的戏 :
“You Are the Apple of My Eye (那些年,我們一起追的女孩)”
哪里知道到了那里,看到不想看到的字SOLD OUT ,
不过幸好还有一场在5PM 。
但是对于喜欢把“随便”挂在嘴边的我 ,五+个小时还不知道要怎么过。
幸好那时有其他戏好选,所以就决定看鬼片好像是叫 《Hong Kong Ghost Stories》
这电影有两个故事:
第一个虽然不可怕但就是被音效给吓到
第二个就比较偏向喜剧多过恐怖。故事内容还是保留比较好,要知道就去看啦!

看完后就“随便”的逛逛~很巧遇到熟人1,就参他们。至少有人可以决定要做什么。
这天在1st Avenue 有舞蹈比赛,我们停下脚步看看下咯。
还蛮精彩的,有气氛有创意。

看完了比赛,到书局看书。好巧是林冠英的访问,他出书了好像是叫《28楼》,
x8楼 , x=unknown
我忘了。

之后去找地方,看到Banner的价钱便宜就决定去吃。
哪里知道,黑店一个。
不能以貌取人就这样证实了,看起来多又好吃只是照片给你的幻觉
吃完后,就帮忙朋友选 生日礼物 和看他们买 参考书

到了四点,熟人1们 回家了。而我们也是时候和熟人2,她们集合。
又再次随便逛逛到五点看戏。果然是值得的,
“You Are the Apple of My Eye (那些年,我們一起追的女孩)”,
好看!好笑!有趣!特别!大胆!
故事内容还是自己去看比较好,值得!)。

就这样便充分的利用一天,吃完晚餐回到家12AM =="

我 - 2人
熟人1 - 3人
熟人2 - 4人
PS : 谢谢摩羯当我一天的DRIVER XD

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
12.00 AM
29 OCTOBER 2011

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Trust and Believe

When I say you are not But I scare You really Not ;

When you said you are not , Although I am disappointed but I
BELIEVE ,

because I
TRUST you .

Then again , I hoping to hear from you
One-On-One

where that moment is the REAL VOICE of you .

I hope when that moment come , Is what I imagine would be.



★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
3.00 PM
19 JULY 2011



Sunday, July 10, 2011

Dream and Reality

Mostly I appears to be happy and cheerful when, truthfully, I am afraid. I usually tries to cope with my fears by closing my eyes and "losing myself in happier days." 


"Wishes can come true. 
But not if you just wait for miracles.
Miracles are things we make for ourselves.
Here, and now."
—Oerba Dia Vanille , Final Fantasy 13



Chasing after someone and wants to apologize for something we did, is simply unable to find the words. Words , that we should said earlier.


"I swore I wouldn't run away anymore! I'd rather fight and lose than give up without even trying!"

"I'm not all smiles and sunshine!"
—Oerba Dia Vanille , Final Fantasy 13




Sometime we tend to remain positive in situations that others would deem hopeless, and also tries to see the brighter side of things.




"The point is, I have people I can count on. I'll make it through."
—Serah Farron , Final Fantasy 13


Face it later if it was too much to deal with, as things can look more clear when looked at from a distance.


"We live to make the impossible possible! That is our Focus!"
—Lightning ( Claire Farron ) , FInal Fantasy 13



★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
11.20 PM
09 JULY 2011

Friday, March 11, 2011

Wishes and Memory

Sometime i wish i am a animation character ....
At least i given a target on what should i do and just follow the storyboard that the writer written .... Sometime life would be easy when let the fate carry me away ....
Follow the same path my whole life through .
Although i know i cant , but i wish it can .
Life is weird , when you run out of choice , you wish there is more choice ; when you got a lot of choice , you wish there is less choice . 
This night, i start thinking .... About future , about past , about you .....
Every time there will be tear come out from my eye ....
I'm not crying ,
but the tear flow out by itself . Maybe my heart is sad , but my face have no expression about that . Is sad that there is no answer for my question .
Every time keep telling myself to move on ....
But end up waiting,
waiting in the past.

Some memory are hard to forget , some are easy .
Maybe because I don-t gave in ,i don-t believe it , i don-t accept it ....
I do not allow it to become true ....
Maybe this is the price to pay for doing that .

Is not that i like using computer whole day , is just that ....
I need to keep myself busy , so that i could stop thinking about those unpleasant memory .... Running away , Afraid , yes i am and i always afraid .
I keep hiding things inside , running away from problem , i want to help but i have not enough spirit to do it and i afraid .



I remember what vanille say : 
no , 
i swear i would not run away anymore ,
 i rather fight and lose
 than give up without even trying . 





And also yuna : 
i will live in my sorrow ,
i will live up my life , 
i will stand my ground and be strong ,
i will defeat sorrow . 
I don't know when will it be but i will conquer it , 
and i will do it without false hope .i will stand my ground and be strong ,



I wish i had their spirit .... Am i ready to face it ? Am i brave enough ? I don-t know ....

Yuna said : 
if we get seperated , 
just whistle , 
i will come by running , i promise .... 

A girl can make a promise like that to her guardian and also friend .... Do i have this chance ? Even i have , i think no one will appear .... Cause i don-t know how to whistle ....

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
12.38 AM
10 MARCH 2011

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

<傑尐✖名句三>

我和你

我和你
就像被搅乱的魔术方块
试着还原
却把还原变得不可能

搭好了一面
却乱了另一边
我累了也不烦恼了
但舍不得丢掉

可以的话
我希望说一声
‘对不起,我不该把你搅乱。’


★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
12.30 PM
7 MARCH 2011

<傑尐✖星情3>

There's a gold frame
that sits by the window
And my heart breaks
 A little more each time I try to picture the memory inside.

There's an old book
 that's too hard to read it
 But if you look
 you'd see how you look through my eyes
But now one more chapter's gone by
and I know

 it's time to move on even though I'm not ready.
 I've got to be strong
and trust where you're heading
Even though It's not easy
 right now the right kind of love
Is a love that lets go

There's an old dance
That we've done forever
You give me your hand
Well let me decide when to reach
You always let me be me
But now's my time to take chances
And find my own wings
And whatever happens I know you'll be there waiting for me

Doesn't wanna miss the future
or stand in the past
It will always hold on
But never hold you back. 
And even though It's not easy 
Right now the right kind of love
Is love that let's go 
With the love that let's goo.



★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
12.04 PM
7 MARCH 2011

Thursday, February 17, 2011

<傑尐✖名句二>

Hope is comforting ...

It allow people to accept their fate .

But i will live in my sorrow ,

i will live up my life ,

i will defeat sorrow .

I don't know when will it be but i will conquer it ,

and i will do it without false hope .



★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
8.23 PM
16 FEB 2011

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

<傑尐✖星情2>

Another night  that I could not sleep , 
I felt like I have a thousand word and thought in my heart that I could not speak out .
I have been thinking a lot lately ,
thinking about the past , 
thinking what I had done , what I had accomplished ...

But all I could recall is those bad memory , 
I could not even recall one single good memory that I had in my past . 
I felt like all the people around me even my dearest friend is hiding things from me.
I felt like I could not trust anyone but myself anymore . 

I can feel the door to my heart is closing day by day , 
maybe one day it will completely closed up and locked up .
Feel alone and being useless .

Everyone is working hard , 
some studying, 
some working, 
everyone has moving toward the future with their path , 
but I still standing there waiting ...
Waiting something to happen or I just don't know what to do . 
Or maybe I just being silly and negative thought ...

No, thinking like that show I'm  running away , 
away from the problem I face ... 
But still , this is not the first time I run away from my problem , 
I had been running in my whole life , not toward the future but away . 
I wish I don't need to run anymore , I wonder when will I able to rest ....
I'm tired from all the running .


And you , You said I'll make u happy when i smile ,
but really , i was afraid ... 
I was always afraid . 

I was just taking it all in . 
The sky, the trees , the sunlight ... 
When I was in the past , I never dreamed a place like this could even exist .
But now ?
Here I am , 
know that there's a fantasy in life . 

If I hadn't gone to those fireworks , 
if i hadn't been there during holiday...
If anything had been different , I'd never have had a chance to see this .
No, 
I'm sure I would have wound up here . 
Because I remembered I promised myself .
I promised myself that i will accept my fate... 

But really .... When did I do that ? Hm , I don't know .. 
How about another lifetime ? To tell you the truth , 
I've told so many lies , it's all a blur... 
But well you know , sometimes you have to lie about stuff ... right ? 
To keep our self going because we're afraid ... 
Or protect someone else , so they don't get hurt .
Sometimes , 
even the things that everyone in the whole word thinks are true turn out to be lies . 

At the end of the day , though , it's not the lie that matters , 
but what you do after you tell it...  Work hard enough , and we can make it true... 

I mean maybe I have forgot , Maybe I did promise myself . 
I tired to run away from you anymore , 
I will had to take it as a bad dream , 
a nightmare that I should have wake up long ago ,
a long long ago ... 

We were once best friend ...
and  also once couple , although it was short but I have no regret . 
Not a best friend then ... 

I just want you beside me... 
I know we had no choice .
It was the only thing we could do . 
It was the only choice we had . 
I gave in , I accepted , I believed , I allowed it to be true .
I thought I'd be able to go through with it without ever doubting myself .
But I ... It hurt so much ...

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
2.00 AM
15 FEB 2011

<傑尐✖星情>

你最近好像敷衍我 好像要避开我
Well I don't like your plan . it's sucks !
Your plan is awful . Think about it . It's no different than others did to you last time .



You destroyed your own friendship . You destroyed those friends who had being together with you , at your side . You didn't have a choice then . You believed that was the only way that benefit us .
Do u know what it felt like when u ignoring me ? Right before my eyes ?


It was the only thing we could do . It was the only choice we had . I gave in , I accepted , I believed , I allowed it to be true . I thought I'd be able to go through with it without ever doubting myself . But I ..... It hurt so much ...

( Forgives Us.....)


Everyone was so happy . 
" Great job , You did it , You saved us all ." 
There were to many smile to count .
And I know that I was smiling too .
But now ... 

when I look back ... 
The people who should be here aren't . 
The ones who should be smiling with me aren't here .

( We had no choice... )

"We had no choice" , 

Always "We had no choice" . 
Those are the magic words, we repeat them to ourselves again and again . 
But you know .... 
The magic never worked ! 
The only thing we're left with .... is regret .

( I'm sorry )

No.... I don't want this anymore....


I don't want friends to leaves ... or fade away . 
I don't want battles where we have to lose in order to win ..
I know what you say is what you mean to do . 
But please , 
Gives me your resolves , 
Believe in me...

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
12.46 PM
14 FEB 2011

Sunday, February 13, 2011

<傑尐✖名句一>

Thank you ah ~


相恋和失恋


如果说都需要练习


一次学会两种也算好事情


谢谢你教会我爱需要两颗心


谢谢你示范了什么人该放弃



★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
2.34 AM
13 FEB 2011

Thursday, January 20, 2011

时间

时间是一个很奇妙的自然界成员之一。
它不能控制我们;我们也不能控制它。
但它却能让我们不知不觉的受它控制。
一到早上我们自动起床;
一到中午我们自动进食;
一到晚上我们自动休息以便迎接下一个新的时间。
天空有时候比平时早亮;
天空有时候比平时早暗。
但时间还是不受周围的变化而影响它的原则,继续地走下去。

时间也是一个很顽固任性的东西。
当我们希望它停止步行时,它却不听还继续的往前走;
当我们希望它快点行走时,它却一步一步慢慢的走;
当我们希望它慢下脚步时,它却给你快速的奔跑。

时间可以带来快乐也可以带来悲伤。
当时间一到,Ka Cha ,终于放工了!
这时我们不但被解放也带来了快乐。

人家常说:“时间能淡化一切”,
我认为有点对又有点错;有点好又有点坏。

没错,时间是可以把伤心的事物封锁。
但它不是永恒的,
虽然心里的伤口表面是恢复了,
但记忆里的伤口永远都会留下伤痕。

当你再次受伤时,以前的伤口不就又再次的裂开让你想起以前的事情,你说对不对?
但不要觉得害怕,因为身边关心你的人 和 永远守护着你的时间 他们都会陪伴着你。

除此,时间也能淡化兴趣和感情。
一开始我们非常爱某些事情或东西 并且决定永远在一起。
但日子久了我们不再像以前那么热情 那么有耐心。

这时的时间 果然真的是淡化一切。
而我们便用了这些字:
噢、对不起、分开吧、当时只是一时冲动而做下了此决定,
等之类的逃脱话语。

只有时间是永不改变的,因为它会带给我们生活上的“情趣”,让我们哭笑不得并且更爱它。

身为人类的我们是否该学习时间,不受外界的影响勇敢和努力的迈向未来和梦想呢。



★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
10.22 AM
19 JAN 2011

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

第一篇部落竟然是含着泪地写....
我认为我是个废物,不,应该说我根本就是个废物.
在别人眼里我肯定是!我也这样认为...

今年刚开始,我就遇见许多不愉快的事...
无论在交际...在感情....在工作...在亲情...都有波折...
我没有狮子座的勇气...
我没有处女座的智慧...
我没有巨蟹座的耐性...
我更没有我本身的星座的开朗.....

我在想...若这世界少了我....会不会好一点....

别人少一个讨厌的人
别人少一个吵架的人
别人少一个拖油瓶

也许我真的是多余的....
我寂寞...
我胆小...
我爱哭...
我没安全感...
我没用....
真的很没用....

自从毕业之后我就失去了方向...
失去了自我...
我试过找我自己...

我爱设计...
爱玩音乐...
爱创作...
爱幻想...
爱玩...

但这些换来的却是反对,看不起和再见...
也因为这样我放弃了我真实的自己...
常已微笑或冷漠来掩饰我自己...
旁人常说你爸是大学生是外国留学生,他的孩子将来一定很出息,读钟灵吧...
而我只能说,对不起...我没用...我笨...没考好成绩...
不是你们的荣耀...我....很讨厌我自己...我崩溃了...

我听到<Melodies Of Life> 和<Song Of Prayer>马上的大哭..
像似我已了解曲子的意思...生命的乐曲...祈祷者无助的心声....
我发觉我已成为这两首歌的一部分...朋友离去....工作无助....
一个无助的我...
在阳台上看着天空祈祷,希望星星,月亮,或者有人可以听见我的心声...
给我生活的目标...
给我生存的火苗...
让我更加坚强..
比之前更好...

含着泪的我...有谁了解...
一个人在星空下哭泣...
只有我...
一个人默默地承受...没人理解....也没人愿理解...
就那么一个人...
默默的哭泣...

连自己喜欢的乐器也不再和我在一起,也离开了我....
一个接一个地离开...
慢慢的剩下我一个人...

今年会有好事情发生吗....
还是有更多悲惨的事情等着我慢慢的发觉...


★愿幻星✖傑尐☆  上
9.50 PM
18 JAN 2011