<傑尐✖名句二>

Hope is comforting ...

It allow people to accept their fate .

But i will live in my sorrow ,

i will live up my life ,

i will defeat sorrow .

I don't know when will it be but i will conquer it ,

and i will do it without false hope .


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8.23 PM
16 FEB 2011

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Another night  that I could not sleep , 
I felt like I have a thousand word and thought in my heart that I could not speak out .
I have been thinking a lot lately ,
thinking about the past , 
thinking what I had done , what I had accomplished ...

But all I could recall is those bad memory , 
I could not even recall one single good memory that I had in my past . 
I felt like all the people around me even my dearest friend is hiding things from me.
I felt like I could not trust anyone but myself anymore . 

I can feel the door to my heart is closing day by day , 
maybe one day it will completely closed up and locked up .
Feel alone and being useless .

Everyone is working hard , 
some studying, 
some working, 
everyone has moving toward the future with their path , 
but I still standing there waiting ...
Waiting something to happen or I just don't know what to do . 
Or maybe I just being silly and negative thought ...

No, thinking like that show I'm  running away , 
away from the problem I face ... 
But still , this is not the first time I run away from my problem , 
I had been running in my whole life , not toward the future but away . 
I wish I don't need to run anymore , I wonder when will I able to rest ....
I'm tired from all the running .


And you , You said I'll make u happy when i smile ,
but really , i was afraid ... 
I was always afraid . 

I was just taking it all in . 
The sky, the trees , the sunlight ... 
When I was in the past , I never dreamed a place like this could even exist .
But now ?
Here I am , 
know that there's a fantasy in life . 

If I hadn't gone to those fireworks , 
if i hadn't been there during holiday...
If anything had been different , I'd never have had a chance to see this .
No, 
I'm sure I would have wound up here . 
Because I remembered I promised myself .
I promised myself that i will accept my fate... 

But really .... When did I do that ? Hm , I don't know .. 
How about another lifetime ? To tell you the truth , 
I've told so many lies , it's all a blur... 
But well you know , sometimes you have to lie about stuff ... right ? 
To keep our self going because we're afraid ... 
Or protect someone else , so they don't get hurt .
Sometimes , 
even the things that everyone in the whole word thinks are true turn out to be lies . 

At the end of the day , though , it's not the lie that matters , 
but what you do after you tell it...  Work hard enough , and we can make it true... 

I mean maybe I have forgot , Maybe I did promise myself . 
I tired to run away from you anymore , 
I will had to take it as a bad dream , 
a nightmare that I should have wake up long ago ,
a long long ago ... 

We were once best friend ...
and  also once couple , although it was short but I have no regret . 
Not a best friend then ... 

I just want you beside me... 
I know we had no choice .
It was the only thing we could do . 
It was the only choice we had . 
I gave in , I accepted , I believed , I allowed it to be true .
I thought I'd be able to go through with it without ever doubting myself .
But I ... It hurt so much ...

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
2.00 AM
15 FEB 2011

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你最近好像敷衍我 好像要避开我
Well I don't like your plan . it's sucks !
Your plan is awful . Think about it . It's no different than others did to you last time .

You destroyed your own friendship . You destroyed those friends who had being together with you , at your side . You didn't have a choice then . You believed that was the only way that benefit us .

Do u know what it felt like when u ignoring me ? Right before my eyes ?

It was the only thing we could do . It was the only choice we had . I gave in , I accepted , I believed , I allowed it to be true . I thought I'd be able to go through with it without ever doubting myself . But I ..... It hurt so much ...

( Forgives Us.....)

Everyone was so happy . 

" Great job , You did it , You saved us all ." 

There were to many smile to count .
And I know that I was smiling too .
But now ... 
when I look back ... 
The people who should be here aren't . 
The ones who should be smiling with me aren't here .

( We had no choice... )

"We had no choice" , 
Always "We had no choice" . 
Those are the magic words, we repeat them to ourselves again and again . 
But you know .... 
The magic never worked ! 
The only thing we're left with .... is regret .

( I'm sorry )

No.... I don't want this anymore....


I don't want friends to leaves ... or fade away . 
I don't want battles where we have to lose in order to win ..
I know what you say is what you mean to do . 
But please , 
Gives me your resolves , 
Believe in me...

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
12.46 PM
14 FEB 2011

<傑尐✖名句一>

Thank you ah ~


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★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上

2.34 AM

13 FEB 2011