Insomnia ! Insomnia ! Tonight I can't fall asleep, so I thought I should write something beside study and study and study.
You know? Ever since I post out 'those feeling of mine' I became more suspect to things around me.
I feel that people are watching me with weird looks, like I'm doing something weird or wrong, I feel uneasy. Is even weird that I started to feel that all people are avoiding me, like I'm some virus and might destroy you all. Including you, well it changes nothing but... is just that somehow I feel something not right, for that you are avoiding me, it is a sigh of you viewed my blog and clearly want me to Give-it-up on you.
Man, am I crazy or what. Fantasise things that not reality.
Yea, I am. Because I'm talking to myself while writing this (=.=)
If is not because of the 'responsible' thing, I might became the 'problematic student earlier'.
Everyday, I have the thought of 'not going to school' but a force of 'I must not, i must not, I MUST NOT' push me away to school. Haiz, stupid thought of being 'responsible'.
I feel so stress-out ! Left out too much at acadamic, and hey ! not only you worry about your looks my friend. My look far more worse than you okay? so ease up will you ! Geez, why people with good look still worry for being 'not much attractive', this problem should belong to 'not good looking' me.
★愿幻星✖傑尐☆ 上
03.30 AM
06 MAY 2012
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