To be Decided (1)

It has been very long since I updated my blog, well I was going to update sooner but no action was taken. There are many question need to be decided after STPM end :

what should I do after the exam,

which course I going to further my studies,

what job should I take while waiting for the result,

Should I take the path that may be alone ?

or Should I continue the path that I always taken ?

or even, Should I continue to In-Love-With-You...

Months had passes, it almost enter March after few days...

These question almost ready with concerning answer,

expect for 'Should I continue to In-Love-With-You',

the other question are not definite cause still need to wait for the result then only will be confirmed.

As for the love question, 

there are few symptoms that lead to confirm answer,

at least this is what I think...

In previous blog, I mention how happy I was when :
I look at you quietly from far,
I mention you in front of my DEAR friend saying how much I care, notice and like about you,
I say how we are blessed by Venus (symbol of love and beauty),
We Hangout together,
We are so close together as you around me,
You look for me for advise,
You look at me,
mention of me...

All are sweet, happy, jealous...
Until after the talk (seminar).
After I recall about that day, I notice that you have not actually look at me when we are talking.
Are you in heard of something?
Are you afraid to this?
or Are you going to quietly withdraw from my life...

I went to a party/gathering,
and I heard that you are in-relationship with someone,
I was like, Wow ! (surprising unexpected)
Maybe it was real,
all those accepting/adding friends,
online but don't know what you do or who you chat...
My heart feels very uneasy and My eyes are wet,
But still,
I need to stay calm and smile.
The event went well and I was Happy and Enjoy that moment,
But after I went home,
I started to think about you and your rumors...
Awful day and night after that,
I tell myself that If is true then accept and bless them,
but I could not....
and I got no one to talk about it since I know they are busy with work and tired after work...
First time got this feeling,
Feeling on uncertainty in this,
cause mostly I able to get someone to flirt with me
(for someone I like that is...),
and I know I'm not a charmer but
Luckily there are friend who ask me to hangout and chat with me,
Which took my apart from theses...

At last,
There is a chance for me to try out whether those rumor are true...

★愿幻星✖傑尐☆　　上
12.06 AM
25 Feb 2013